My balls are currently sticking to my leg because of how incredibly hot and humid it is here in Honduras. I've been here for the past two and a half weeks for a surprise birthday visit to my sister who is living with my father here for the time being. After arriving in this wonderous nation unannounced, it was a pleasant and gratifying feeling knowing that one of my goals I had set for this summer had been completed. Seeing m sister jumping in joy and even forgetting to open the gate for me because she was so ecstatic to see me told me I had done a good deed :-).
My time here has proved to be nothing more but a calm before the storm. In a way it's been a break from an abiss and limbo I felt I was trapped in back home from trying to figure out what it was that I wanted to do with myself, professionally and on a personal level. Work, studies, family, friends, and women were all in a mixed confusion, as if I was trying to spell something out in a bowl of Campell's letter soups I used to have when I was young. I felt as though I couldn't spell anythign out. Taking a step back and putting things into perspective has always worked for me, especially when I'm here. As much as this place is nothing but a bucket of shit...with bananas in it, it's always provided me with closure.
It seems like these past two and a half weeks have gone particularly slow as well, as most of my days consisted of sleeping in late, being catered to by my family's maid, and hours wasted on playing FIFA on my brother's Playstation. Nevertheless, there were many significant advances I made while here. I spent time with my sister I didn't expect to have, until days before I knew I would be coming here. That by far was the most important part of the trip. I also got to know my father in a whole new light. I began to see him in ways I didn't expect to EVER get to know him...for who he is as a person. Also, considering I only have 5 minutes to put everything that's happened into words, I'll be brief and concise: I've decided where I'm going to work, where I'm going to live, and I even met a girl while here. That for sure was unexpected. Don't get it wrong though, it's not like the dating type, more like a pen pal. I feel this can be beneficial for me though. Strictly selfish, I mean...I'm Jay Martinez! Come on!
In any case, many many many updates to come soon in the near future! I'm excited! I called this time the calm before the storm, because as soon as I get back tomorrow, I'm hitting the ground running and making moves. To me, it's a storm, because although storms tend to blur everything out and they make everything a tumultuous matter, everything that follows afterwards comes to new life and the sun shines through :-) Gay I know, but that's how I see what these coming times will be like. For my closing thoughts, I want it to be known that as I sit here in my brother's room and my bags packed up next to me, I couldn't be any happier to have spent these last two weeks here. I'll truly miss it, and mostly you Ly...I love you with all my heart and Ill be seeing you sooner than you think.
-WanderingTerp
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